I didn’t write in this blog during my summer hiatus (the last 30 days, or so), which involved an intense period of business development for my company and a trip to Lake Champlain in upstate New York (where God lives).
The time away was very beneficial. Intense business development is by definition an introspective pursuit (at least, at critical junctures) and any proper trip to the Adirondacks should involve time to listen to God.
The most important thing that I learned during my time away? Hard to say. But from my listening and my reflection, here is one thing that I would like to share.
My life has taken a flip-flop. I spent the first part of my adult life concerned that God and people didn’t love me enough. However, in the last couple of years I’ve been more concerned that I haven’t loved God and people enough.
Where once I used to dwell on the transgressions of others against me (and fight against that tendency), of late I have reflected more on my failures to love. Instead of being filled with indignation, I have become more joyful—joy tinged with sorrow, in the knowledge of wrongs committed that have impacted others.
I hope to pass from this state into one of full confidence in the forgiveness of God, and a constant state of joy, even amidst suffering. How will I get there? By what winding paths will God bring me to this place? I don’t know... and I’m afraid to find out.
My life is what God wants it to be, as I cooperate with Him. It isn’t about what I want to do, or what I have become accustomed to doing. This is a freeing insight, because it admits of so many possibilities. With only me, the possibilities are extremely narrow! With God, anything is possible. Easy words to type, but much harder to live by.
I forget who said, “The great thing about being a Christian is that you already know the outcome.” This has been reaffirmed recently in my own life. Now I have to learn to constantly live the joy that knowledge inspires.
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